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Shadow of a Doubt Ch. 01  


An older story of mine. I hope you like it. Reluctance and some NC at the end - be warned.
Synopsis: After Shannon confesses her slutty fantasies to her Dominant husband, he makes them come true. A scorching tale of the fight between fear and desire as one day in Shannon's life spirals beyond her control...

Chapter 01

"Baby?" my husband asked, as we lay in bed.


"Open your eyes. Look at me."

I was laying on my back on our bed, in post-orgasmic bliss. I rolled onto my side, facing him. "Yes, Sir?"

"Do you remember what you said?"

I blushed a little and hesitated. "I love being your slut?" I whispered, biting my lip.

"Yeah, that."

"A bit naughty, huh?" I giggled. I was nervous.

"Well, yeah. But you're always naughty," he winked. I grazed my fingernails lightly down his muscular chest. "It was more the way you said it," he pressed.

I swallowed. "I can't help it. You just make me so wild, Sir." I licked along my teeth with my mouth open in a little smile, staring into his deep blue eyes. I was teasing and trying to change the subject. I thought maybe I could get round two going. Johan would have none of it.

"It sounded more like a plea. Are you happy with 'us'? Are you satisfied?"

Oh, God yeahhhh! "Johan baby," I said, caressing his cheek. "I love everything we do so much. I can hardly imagine being more satisfied than I already am."

"And there's always your toys, right?"

"Mhmmm. You wanna play with some?"

"You're insatiable."

I giggled. "Sometimes!"

"Go get your high tech vibe, the one I got you for Christmas... and your butt plug."

"Awww, do I have to get the plug? You know I-"

"Just get it, dirty girl. And get that little whip I bought the other day. We haven't tried that yet. I promise I'll be gentle."

"Yes, Sir." I smiled to myself. Yay for round two! Maybe I'll get to suck him off as well!

Later, feeling thoroughly fucked and exhausted, I was lazily caressing my clit with my fingers. The toys lay on the bed next to me, and I could feel Johan's cum dripping down my chin and drying on my neck. My mind wandered behind my closed eyes. I was thinking about one of my favourite fantasies, and my pussy had started getting juicy again.

"What are you thinking about?" Johan interrupted.

I felt like I'd been caught. "Oh, nothing."

"Well, it's obviously something. What do you fantasise about?"

"Mostly you, baby."


Oh, dear. "Yeah, mostly."

"What else then? C'mon tell me!" He jumped on top of me and held my arms down over my head with one hand. He's a huge guy and I'm only small!

"Noooo!" I squealed.

"Tell me or I'll tickle you."

"I can't!" I whined.

"Yes, you can!" He started tickling me madly, and I'm sooo ticklish! In moments I was laughing painfully and trying to squirm from his firm grasp.

"Nooooo! Ahhhhh! You're killing meeee!" He attacked me just under my ribs, his nails just right and sending me mad with laughter, tears pouring from my eyes. "Stop, please, pleeeeeaaaassssseeeee!!!"

"I'll stop when you tell me!"

"Ahhhh! Nooo!!! OOhhhhhhhh!!! Okayyyy! Okkaaayyyyyy!!!!" I was exhausted and crying from the tickling and all I could think was, What am I gonna tell him? "You'll think I'm a slut!"

"Really. How interesting."

"I mean it, Johan. You really don't wanna know."

"Oh yes I do, Shannon."

"But it's wrong and... Ohhh..." I burst into tears. It was the moment I'd always dreaded. Ever since we started this dominance and submission thing, I've been really honest about everything. Everything except this. I just couldn't bring myself to tell him I had these crazy fantasies.

Johan lay down beside me, taking me into his arms. "It's all right baby, honestly. It's all right. What could be so bad? I know you're a very passionate and sexy girl. It's okay to have fantasies you are embarrassed about sharing. I won't judge. I promise."

"But you'll hate me! You'll think I'm a dirty, filthy, little whore!" My nipples stood up hearing the words coming from my own mouth!

Johan noticed too. He took one between fingers and thumb and tugged it gently. "I can see that thinking about your fantasies turns you on, little one. I have an idea." I just swallowed and listened. "I want you to have everything I can give you. Everything within my power. I want to grant you a fantasy or two. I want to make it happen. Just to show you how much I love you. And baby?"

I sniffled. "Yes, Sir?"

"I give you my solemn promise, as a man, as your husband, and as your dominant. I will never leave you because of this. The only way I'll ever leave you is if you beg me. You know that. And nothing you could fantasise about would change that."

I curled up in his arms and wiped my cheek on the pillow. "Are you sure?"

"I promise, baby. I promise."

"O... Okay."

A couple of hours later, we were lying on our backs in bed. I'd just finished telling him everything and I was worried he'd just get up and leave. But after a few moments, he spoke. "I want you to write it all down as a request and sign it."

"Write it down? Sign it?"

"I'm not having you reporting me to the police, pet."

I nodded slowly. "Yes, Sir. I understand."

"And no fudging."

I giggled and leaned up on my elbow, looking down on him. "Okay. I'll write it all down. God, I can't believe it. You really don't hate me?"

"Baby, I think you're the hottest woman in the world. Boy am I gonna have fun with this!"

I swallowed again. I really couldn't believe he didn't think I was a low-down gutter tramp. "I love you," I said.

"And I love you, baby. No matter what. I love you more than life itself."

I slipped into his arms again and held him tightly. "I'm so relieved," I whispered.

"It's all right," he whispered back. "It's all right." I fell asleep with the sweet feeling of his loving fingers running gently through my hair.

"Have you done it yet?"

"Done what?" To be honest I hoped he'd somehow forgotten about it. We were standing in the kitchen the next afternoon. It was a Sunday.

"Have you written down your fantasies for me, baby? I can't do anything till you've written them down and signed on the dotted line." He winked.

"Ohh..." I whined.

"Don't be afraid, Shannon. I love you, remember?"

"It's not that. I know you love me, after what I told you, I definitely know it now. It's just a bit... I don't know... scary!"

"I bet it turns you on!"

"A bit."

"Liar." He smiled at me and I blushed.

"Sorry, Sir."

"Good girl." I love it when he calls me his 'good girl'. It makes me feel so appreciated. Such simple words. So easy to say. So easy to forget to say. "Go on then."

"Now? But I was going to water the garden."

"I'll do it. You go sit down at the computer for an hour or so. I'll start dinner too."

"Goodness. Thank you, darling."

"Anything for my sweet girl." He curled his warm fingers around my cheek and I leaned against his hand. My brown eyes swam in the blue of his. If only I knew what I was getting myself into. Oh, but I knew. I knew only too well. Just admitting these things made me practically shit myself. Thinking about them made me wet. Talking about them made me need to change my underwear.

I just wanted it to happen. I needed it to happen. Something. I don't know why, and I honestly didn't care what or how. I just wanted something off the wall. Something scary or crazy. Something out of my deepest, darkest fantasies. I needed it. Needed to know. Needed to feel. Yes, my fantasies have driven me crazy lately, affecting me at inopportune times. Shopping. Watching television. Washing up. Sometimes it's hard to resist the need to masturbate. I love to masturbate.

Fortunately, I found a man who has managed to keep my demons at bay. He leaned in to kiss me at that moment, and as I always do, I melted. I married him when he told me I wouldn't find anyone like him ever again. He was right.

I hope you don't think I'm sick. Well actually, I've often thought the same thing myself. I mean, well okay, I was a bit wild in high school. By that, I just mean a bit. My fantasies always outstripped my realities. I've always loved masturbating. I loved to fantasise. As my sex-toy collection grew, my fantasies grew more and more elaborate. And more bizarre. And more extreme. Though I'd sucked a few cocks, and given a few hand jobs, just about everything I knew today I'd been taught. By my Johan.

His warm, slightly minty tongue slid into my mouth, filling me with him while his hands found my ass. I kissed him back fervently. Thinking about this stuff always made me hot. Kissing him made me hotter. With one last squeeze of my ass and one last slice of his long, strong tongue into my mouth, he broke the kiss. "Get in there," he growled, grinning.

"Yes, Sir!" I giggled, and darted out, but not before yelping when he smacked my ass as I skipped past. Thanks to that little tête-à-tête in the kitchen, I was already wet when I sat down to write. But that alone wouldn't explain why I locked the door and slipped my panties off. No. You see, I have to admit I was turned on by the thought of writing down my darkest fantasies. I'd never been this far before. The thought that I might have one or more actually occur was intensely arousing.

I should tell you about myself. My name is Shannon Bree Stollson. I've been married to the man who stole my cherry for almost eight years. I'm twenty-seven years old and I'm reasonably slim and I'm told I'm attractive. My hair is blonde but I'm not natural. Well it's streaked blonde so you would know anyway, even though I shave my pussy. I do that for my husband. He insists. He says he prefers it that way, and now I do too.

One weekend almost ten years ago I met him while at the beach. I was busy readjusting my bikini when he walked right up to me and asked if I needed a hand. I could hardly speak. God, he was just so gorgeous. I still get weak-kneed when I see him naked. Or in a suit. Or in almost anything. Five minutes later he was asking me out. We've been together ever since.

Nowadays he runs his own business consulting for medical importers and exporters. But then again, he could do almost anything. He speaks six languages fluently. Though I keep house, our two children are under four and are in day care two days a week. Monday and Tuesday. They also enjoy staying at their grandmother's house on Sunday and Monday nights. Which of course gives us ample time to continue our torrid love life. 'Our weekend, ' he called it, when he insisted on the habit. As the years went by, I adored our weekends, and gladly accepted his strange working week. I gladly accepted a lot of things. As our love life became more and more crazy, I accepted a lot!

I accepted his dominance right from the beginning. It was only a few short years later than we formalised the relationship. We had discovered the BDSM lifestyle through a friend of his, who brought us along to a munch. That's where like-minded people get together and chat about things. We soon realised we were already practicing. I was already his submissive. He was already my dominant. We read lots of stuff together and drew up a contract. I was so nervous and so excited. I eagerly signed it and gushed into my panties as I did.

So began our life. It's easy to be a good submissive when your man is such a fucking turn-on. I mean, even in my fantasies, when it's just one man, it's always my man. Always. He's so imposing. Everyone looks at him first when we walk into a room. At first I didn't like it. But after a while it just made me proud. And thankful. Thankful that it was me on this Adonis' arm. But he is so much more than an Adonis. He's not cocky, just self-assured. He knows himself well. And he is about to know me better than he ever has. I started typing.

This is a bit embarrassing to admit. But when I get wet, I'm only allowed to clean myself with my fingers and my mouth. Which usually just makes me all the wetter. Which is kind of self-defeating, don't you think? He chuckled when he made that rule. But it was right up my alley.

I have slut fantasies. Fantasies where I'm taken unwillingly and fucked till I love it. Who am I kidding? I love being fucked. And I mean completely fucked. Sweaty and sore. All holes. I am not too keen about anal, but I like it after the initial shock and pain. I don't look forward to that feeling. It makes my tummy tumble. But after that, I do love it. I feel so slutty too. Naughty. Dirty. Delicious.

I loveeee sucking too. Especially big ones, though not all my fantasy men have enormous cocks. A couple of my girlfriends really envy me! But I don't know why. I mean, if Johan were a bit smaller, it would be a lot easier! A cock is a cock, right? I can't imagine a tiny one being much fun though. Is it wrong to genuinely feel a bit sorry for those guys?

I just think sucking is so yummy though. I can see his face and actually know whether I'm being pleasing. I mean, it's got to be pretty hard to fake! Right girls? I also spend a fair bit of time on my knees too. Oh! I don't mean like that! Let me explain!

Johan is my husband and lover, but he is also my Master. I like being able to kneel at his feet. So I have three really big cushions in various places around the house. With time, one really does get used to kneeling. As long as one's joints and back are okay, I mean. I guess I also feel sorry for the subbies who can't do that. I love looking up at him from down there. I love seeing the look in his eyes.

And I love knowing a man's cock is hard because I am exciting him. It's basic and animal and it affects me deeply. It makes me horny and I like being horny. I mean, I'm no 'spread my legs at the drop of a hat' type slut. God, the men at the supermarket, or the women for that matter, would have a fit. No, I am very straight-faced and can conceal my horniness well.

I mean, God. I've never done anything really wild. I've never slept with anyone but Johan. I'm just a regular girl who had normal type young girl fantasies and stuff. Save myself for marriage and all that. Not strongly, I just hadn't met anyone who I really wanted to do it with.

When a friend mentioned erotic literature and a website one day, I had a look and was hooked. I read and read and fantasised and wished Johan would just take me. I mean we were going together and everything, and I was thinking, God he's such a hunk. I wonder if I should let him fuck me? I masturbated endlessly wondering what it would be like. But I could never throw myself at him. I'd probably even resist. God, then I had a thought and a feeling went through me that I will never forget.

What if he forced himself on me?

Now let me make something perfectly clear. He would not have been raping me. That thought was not what I was thinking about. The idea of being actually raped is NOT what I'm talking about. What made me tremble with carnal lust was the idea of being forced, when I wanted it.

Because I did want it. And I recognise that now. To be honest, I recognised it then too. I recognised it as he pushed his big cock into my virgin pussy and I came as the pain hit me. I bucked back at him and screamed. I breathlessly told him to fuck me harder. He split me open and I cried in ecstasy.

I became a slut almost overnight. Not a slut for any guy. Just for my guy. I discovered the joy I felt in giving pleasure almost immediately. Johan had me kneel in front of him and we spent a whole day practicing and talking about sucking cock.

Mmmmm. It took a heartbeat to realise I had a lot of power when on my knees. Listening to him moan at my various touches made me cream. I absolutely loved it. I wanted to suck him all the time, and I was always disappointed when I didn't get the opportunity. I was becoming demanding. High maintenance.

I knew I had a strong sex drive. I read about it. It was normal for young females to have strong desires when first introduced to sex. Much like males. But apparently more so, given the fact that my first experience was good. That can be crucial, so I've read.

All I knew was, I found myself thinking about having sex with Johan all the time. In school, after school, at dinner, when out with friends, sailing, skiing, anything, anywhere, anytime. It got to the point where I started to beg him. Yeah, yeah, I know. How demeaning. But honestly, I didn't think about it that way. I just wanted my fix. "C'mon baby, don't you wanna fuck me?" God, I was such a slut. "No? Awww. Then can I suck you? Would that be okay? Please?"

Conversely, he actually was pleased. I mean, what big-cocked, hot blooded, Scandinavian guy wouldn't be? He was making a cute little number into his own personal slut. I had all the necessary assets. I had the body and I still do. I had the open, accepting mind. I had the enthusiasm and the strong desire to please. And I had a man who satisfied me wildly beyond my frantic masturbatory imaginings. I would have done anything for him.

After outrageous sex one afternoon, we were kissing and cuddling and talking, as we always do. "I'll marry you one day," he said.

I rolled over onto my tummy, looking down on him. He was lying on his back, breathing heavily. "You will, huh?" I smiled widely.

"If you'll have me." He winked.

"I'd have you. I'm not an idiot."

"What about now, then?"

"What?" My tummy tumbled.

"Will you marry me?"

"Are you asking?" Duh. Okay, so I wanted some time. He nailed me. He always does.

"Shannon. Don't hedge me, baby. You know you're mine. You always have been. And you always will be. I can't see a reason why we shouldn't."

I reached up and caressed his face. "Nor can I. Of course I'll marry you, baby."

I settled down a little and found myself some interests. At nineteen, I was still so reliant on Johan. As his star rose, I wanted to feel like a success too. Marriage to a twenty-eight year old business executive was fun and sometimes exciting, but I wanted something I could call my own.

I had designs on becoming a graphic artist, so while Johan worked his fingers to the proverbial bone, I went to school and boy was that fun. I enjoyed all the looks I got, walking around the campus in my short skirts and halter necks. I fended off dozens of advances from guys during those years and actually got into one jam with a guy who pinned me against the wall in the college bar one evening.

God, it made me so wet, but thanks to a friend, I squirmed out of his embrace and fled home into the arms of my husband who kindly fucked my ass off. I was so nervous when I got home though. He'd warned me so many times about wearing the clothes I liked. "One day you are gonna get attacked wearing stuff like that," he'd say.

"Don't be so old-fashioned."

"Well, don't say I didn't warn you." I wish I had a dollar for every time he said something like that. When I returned that night, he had no sympathy. "You stupid slut. He probably thought you were begging for it."

"But I wasn't though," I complained. "I didn't say anything. He just grabbed me and pushed me against the wall and started feeling me up."

"Hey, I've warned you a hundred times, if you dress like a tart, you'll be treated like one."

"That's not fair. I like my clothes."

"You probably loved it anyway."

"I did not!"

"Bullshit. You said you didn't say anything!"

"I was too shocked!"

"Bullshit. Show me your cunt."



"Oh, it's not fair. You make me wet. Not this. Not being felt up by a complete stranger!"

"I don't believe you. Show me your cunt, NOW!"

"Ohhhhh..." I remember picking up the hem of my short skirt and there for Johan to see was a big patch of wetness in the gusset of my panties.

"See? You loved it." Well of course I did. But I couldn't admit it to him, no matter how submissive I was. Good girls aren't supposed to like that kind of thing. I always thought I was good, as long as I was pleasing my man. I fantasised about a lot of things, sure. But I never dreamed of actually doing them.

"No, I love you!" Yeah, I know, I wasn't exactly lying, but I wasn't telling the truth either. Honesty is the basis of a correct D/s relationship. I've heard it a million times before. But a girl's got to have some secrets, right? They were just fantasies, and I didn't want to hurt my man. Or my marriage.

I mean, what would happen if I told him the truth? What would happen if I told him I fantasised about being fucked by a gang in an alley? Or treated like a slut by a girl and forced to go down on her and her friends? God! He might disown me! He might think I'd gone too far, that I really wanted something like that to happen!

Ugh! I couldn't tell him the truth! I couldn't tell him my nipples got hard as soon as that guy at school pressed his body against me. I couldn't tell him I practically went weak at the knees as he put his hand up my skirt and caressed the inside of my thigh. It was indecent! I was so thankful Suzie, one of my friends from class, was with me.

"Get off her, you baboon!" She punched him hard in the shoulder and I wriggled free. I was slack-jawed, unable to comprehend why I didn't do anything to stop him. I was like a deer in headlights. Fortunately it all happened so fast, Suzie hadn't noticed. I felt embarrassed. I felt humiliated. I felt guilty.

And I felt wet.

Which Johan decided to check. Right there in the kitchen. He said I was a slut, and sluts should be punished. So he took the wooden spoon from the drawer and spanked my ass about fifty times! He made me admit I was a slut. Yes, I'm a slut! For you! Then he spanked me till my ass glowed and I was moaning from the red-hot pain and the humiliation of being spanked over the kitchen bench. God, it was breathtaking!

When he was done, he fucked me right up my sore and sorry ass. And he was rough. I go nuts when he's rough. When I thought he was done spanking me, he pushed me back down and pushed two fingers up my pussy, fucked me with them for a minute, then pushed them straight up my ass. God! If my ass wasn't so sore, and I wasn't so exhausted, I would have screamed for mercy. But by this time I just wanted to be fucked.

And so I was. He cornholed my poor little ass till I screamed in ecstasy. Did I tell you I love it up the ass after that initial penetration has settled down? Well, he never gave me the chance to get accustomed. He just jammed himself up my ass and started hammering away. It knocked the wind out of me and I couldn't even think, let alone scream! Then he started spanking my already tortured ass and I forgot about the pain from his cock real fast. In no time I was bucking back into him and yelling for him to fuck me till I was raw. He pulled my head back by the hair and slammed me till he came, then spanked me once more for good measure and told me to clean up.

I knew what that meant. I had to wipe up the juices from my pussy that were running down my legs and lick them from my fingers. I begged him to let me cum but he said I wasn't allowed. He said, "Sluts get used, they don't care how. And they get off on being used, not just by cumming." It was like he hit a raw nerve. And that nerve was in my clit. I had to be careful to avoid it so as not to cum. He kept me like that for hours, and while I hated it at the time, looking back on it now it turned me on so much.

So maybe I am his slut. His horny girl. His horny little slut girl who masturbates to her hot fantasies. Fantasies that make her nervous at the thought of telling him. Nervous and wet. Even now, sitting here trying to finish my first paragraph, I keep getting distracted and have to clean the juices leaking from my pussy. And lick my fingers. I can hear his chuckle in my mind and it just makes me wetter...

Dear Sir,

I've been a naughty girl and I haven't been completely and utterly honest with you. I have extreme fantasies, fantasies that would make a whore blush, and as you asked, I will set them out here, for you to do with as you wish...

Posted : 09/07/2011 11:50 pm